Oh my gosh ... enough already ... yesterday I was learning about lecturing and now today about being bossy ... showing ALL my strengths these days ... this is the process of journaling where I don't really like people knowing that much about me and want to cover up the process with sweet frosting!

But, I am bossy ... primarily to myself ... and when I am too bossy inside ... my bossy girl reaches out to the masses ... not a very endearing quality of mine ... am I forgiven because I am aware of my bossy traits?

Today I am bossy about my life ... time to tie up loose ends or at least cut them loose from my thoughts so I can move forward and stop stomping my feet with my arms crossed tightly ... wishing, hoping, praying that something or SOMEONE will change ... oh, yeah ... that would be my job.

Change your thoughts, change your life ... I remember that quote.

Sometimes being bossy is my way of saying I am at the end of "Spirit MK" and have been taken over by "Bossy MK" ... I really don't like to be reminded of my behavior because I am absolutely aware of "Bossy MK" and even though she is giving "Spirit MK" a bit of a breather ... still not a quality I admire ... but a quality I accept.

When my bossy-ness arises, I realize I have neglected to feed my Spirit ... to nurture her, console her, read to her, give her rest ... to feed her ... to walk in nature, be with friends, call upon prayer ... to honor and respect my Spirit.

Today I am bossy ... observing how being bossy is simply the result of me ignoring who I am at the very core of my being ... and waiting for someone else to fix everything for me ... and I notice in that moment how I have given my personal power away to another human or another project or to "Bossy MK" ...

Notice today when you feel overwhelmed, bossy, resentful, or irritated ... remind yourself to feed the beautiful Spirit of you ... only you can feed your Spirit ... reclaim your personal power and fill your Spirit.

Not exactly the word I would like to be writing about today, but ... here I go and I have no idea where I will end up ...!

The word "lecturing" reminds me of  my college days, sitting for endless hours in classes that held no interest to me ... my irrational need to run quickly out of the door to breathe fresh air before I suffocated inside the endless array of meaningless words filling the already over-crowded, dreary room ... I could feel myself melting ... dying a slow death ... Yes, I am being dramatic, but that's what lecturing does to me ...

I remember times when I was being "lectured" by my parents about something I did or didn't do and the blah blah blah blah words melted inside my head, my eyes glazed over, and I would agree to anything just to be set free from the web of lecturing words ...

And then, I remember sitting in literature classes and the lecture would begin ... Edgar Allen Poe ... the lecture became theatre ... conversations sparked ... heated discussions ... controversy ... passion ... the lecturing was innovative, energizing, and involved.

Lecturing is like the flip of a coin ... one side heads ... the other side wings ...

The head side makes me feel foggy, uninterested, annoyed, meaningless, and wishing for the end!  But, the wings ... I just want to fly ... to experience, indulge, and become a part of the lecture ...

I suppose the conversation of lecturing draws me to the understanding of how I speak with others or how I speak at others ... one is engaging the other is dis-engaging ...

Perhaps today brings a level of consciousness to my conversations with others ... am I lecturing because I am frustrated or annoyed with their level of understanding and commitment ... or am I lecturing because I am teaching and sharing within their level of understanding and commitment.

Lecturing from the ego mind or from the heart ... which serves the highest and greater good?

Each day I have the same morning ritual ... wake up, prayer of gratitude, drink water, meditate, and to the studio for workouts, clients, and the business day begins ... but if I miss any piece of the morning ritual, I feel my day slip out of my hands and turn into a day of trying to herd cats (a saying by Jim Rohn that always makes me smile).

I am discovering how much I love my morning ritual.  The intention of the day begins to rule the day and I am blessed with the clarity and purpose.  When I feel chaos around me, I realize I have shifted off my center point and I re-set my intention of the day by repeating the ritual ... a prayer of gratitude, drink water, meditate, and begin the day with a renewed heart.

I am discovering the influence of water upon my body and mind.  A simple glass of water hydrates, refreshes, and awakens me to the day ... simplicity.

There is great power in ritual and simplicity. 

All too often our lives become muddy and complicated ... the walk is slow, repetitive, and painful ... and soon the walk becomes common, mundane, and numb.

Today is the day to discover the power of a simple, morning ritual ... a ritual that can be easily repeated through the day when you feel you have lost your footing.  Notice how the ritual brings you back to your center ... your heart ... your wisdom ... your purpose ... your intention.

Oprah once made the statement "Intentions rule the earth" ... discover your ritual, your intentions, your earth!

Life is showing itself big and bold these days ... are you ready?  Now is the time to stand in the drift of the unknown and open your eyes wide to the possibilities rushing towards you ... feel the energy of abundance and creativity!

I love reading all the inspiring blogs, connecting with long-lost friends on facebook, laughing at the studio, and watching my daughter grow up right before my eyes. 

Today I am standing in my most favorite time of year ... planting!  I dream crazy and wild and BIG in the wintertime ... then the planting happens when the right seeds fall into the fertile grounds of life ... and then ... watch out ... my dreams come true!

Yes, I admit that I push the limit ... but why not?  I love to stand in the middle of wild dreams because no matter how bumpy the road or how much rain falls on my head or how dry the desert ... I stand in the absolute truth that I am being watched over by God ... by angels ... by loved ones ... by the spirit of the Universe.

All is possible ... stand in the middle ... spread your arms out wide ... lift your face to the sky ... smile ... and say YES ... and receive the celebration of life in your heart ... to share with the world! 

YOU make the difference today ... TODAY ... so get out there and stand bold, brave, and beautiful so everyone shares in the magic of you.

Today YOU are standing ...